I am without e I am within are two parts of a diptych.
by Dewey Dell
with: Nida Jaruševiciute (in I am without),
Gioia e Alma Pascucci (in I am within)
choreography: Teodora Castellucci
original music: Demetrio Castellucci
light design: Eugenio Resta
costumes: Guoda Jaruševiciute
curator: Agata Castellucci
production: Societas 2018
I am within has been realized with the support of MiBAC and SIAE, in the frame of “Sillumina – Copia privata per i giovani, per la cultura”
I am without
The immense landscapes of the mind like the deepest waters of the Oceans are unlit, immeasurable and unknown. The fluidity of the imagination permeates endlessly through the majestic columns of the intellect, composing the voices we hear inside the brain. In a total subjective solitude logic does not exist and time is an alien concept.
The teenager on stage continuously transfigures herself in a vortex of images and feelings, each born from another, like an infinite fractal. An attack from the inside, from the depths of her own abyss, towards the surface.
I am within
There are times in our everyday lives when we can encounter something immensely overwhelming, something that we cannot bear to see or to listen to. It is in these moments, when we try to find the words to express how we feel, the language can appear so insufficient that it expands a shadow between us and the outside world: we feel alone despite being surrounded by others. A part of this experience remains within, behind us, and although it is something that forms the person who we are, we cannot fully share it with anyone.
In this loneliness - unsolvable shadow - a powerful reaction begins: the ability to become the defence and the consolation that we need.
The ten year old girl on stage is immersed in the power of her own protection, continuously transforming herself in terrible beasts and, sometimes, in celestial images.